things are looking up

[freezingrayne]

So I saw a therapist and a psychiatrist on Tuesday. I now have anti-depressants and a diagnoses of being Severely Depressed (seriously, the doctor gave me this question answer and it was off the charts) which I sort of knew already, since I've been struggling with it since I was in fourteen, but there you go.

I'm also going to start seeing the therapist on campus. Hopefully, I can get some things in my head straightened out. And maybe, one day, I'll be able to look in the mirror without cringing, fail a test without wanting to kill myself, and maybe have a healthy relationship with someone. Maybe I can stop being so goddamn angry all the time.

Comments

[cypher]

Oh, that's great news! I'm so glad you were able to find somebody who could help you. I hope you start seeing improvement soon. ♥

[freezingrayne]

Thanks! I felt really good yesterday and this morning, though I think that's the placebo effect, rather than the drugs working already. But it was really nice to go in and have someone tell me that what I have is a disease, and not just me going around being weak and fail and stuff like that.

Somehow, fail has become an adjective.

[cypher]

Yeah, I definitely had that placebo relief a few weeks ago, too -- it's just such a relief, to have somebody say "Yes, this is a real problem, and here is something I can do to help." \o/

[vangirl]

I'm glad to hear things are looking up for you. ♥